What self hatred really does

One of the worst and most hidden type of hatred is self hatred. Sometimes more than others it can cause people to choose dangerous and various methods of dealing with it. I would know because i lived it . There were times i hated looking in the mirror and when i did all i saw was what my bulimia wanted me to see. All i saw when i was sick was alll the things that i had to fix about myself. I remember the pills,and purging and cuts that i did to make the hatred go away,  but it kept comming back. Now i have learned being almost recovered that when you let go of your bulimia most of your self hatred goes with it because it leaves with what started it. So if you ever have that problem just do what i do don't think  about what you don't like about yourself but think of the stuff you love about your life.

This my sound weird but it helps but i write compliments and quotes on my mirror and notebooks to help me remember that self hatred is the road that i once took that almost cost me my life.

Sign of bulimia

During these episodes, symptoms of bulimia include:

•Eating an excessive amount of food
•Lack of control over eating
•Self-induced vomiting
•Misuse of laxatives, diuretics, enemas, or other medications
•Fasting
•Excessive exercise.
•Heart problems, such as irregular heartbeat, low pulse, low blood pressure, weakened heart muscle, or heart failure

•Problems with fluids and electrolytes, including dehydration and low levels of potassium, magnesium, and sodium
•Intestinal problems, such as constipation, irregular bowel movements, bloating, diarrhea, and abdominal cramping
•Mouth problems, including cavities, tooth enamel erosion, gum disease, and sensitivity to hot and cold foods
•Mental health problems, including depression, fear of gaining weight, anxiety, dizziness, shame, and low self-esteem
•Throat and esophagus soreness, irritation, or tears
•Stomach problems, including ulcers, pain, and delayed emptying
•Anemia
•Abrasion of knuckles
•Dry skin
•Cheek swelling or soreness
•Blood in vomit
•Irregular or absent period
•Muscle fatigue.

If you recognize any of these signs you need to get  them help it could mean there life