Mia Lies

You said you would give me everything if i did what you wanted
I gave you everything and you gave me nothing but pain
You told me everything would get better if i just took one more pill
One more pill , just one more thats what you told me

You told me that people would only love me if i was skinny
You told me you would make me loved i just had to pay a price
Little did i know that the price you asked was for my life
So i gave you my life and you destroyed it and put me through hell

Because of you i almost lost everything i love
There was a time where you told me that life wasnt worth it
Well your wrong , life is worth living
I can't beleive that i gave you six years of my life
Your no friend your just the "Promiser"

You promised me everything if i gave you control
You gave me nothing all you did was take away everything
You said you were the only one that loved me and would never hurt me
Well the blood from the purging tells me you lied

So now im leaving you you selfish "Promiser"
You gave me nothing so fight allyou want to keep me
but in the end i will win and be with people that actually love me

Hating Bulimia Poem

Holding in the tears,

As I stare into my porcelain sanctuary,
My fingers slide gently into my throat,

This has all become routine to me,
The bathroom door is locked,

So no one will catch this act of shame,

My evil act of redemption
Fueled by my morbid disdain,

The acid starts to burn my throat,

A twisted kind of pleasure,
Relying on the thrill of the purging,
The delight that keeps my life together,
The taste of blood and vomit mix,
Leaving a terrified feeling of disgrace,
I spit out what is left,

To rid myself of this horrid taste,

I struggle to my room,

And allow myself to collapse on the bed,
My shallow heart beats in my chest,
As thoughts of dishonor run through my head,
I have become immune to this feeling,
But disappointment dwells deep inside my heart,
My delight of destroying myself,

Is tearing my life apart.